Anxiety, Fatigue and Lack of Sleep
The relationship between sleep and anxiety is an infinity loop; it's snake eat tail.
Insomnia causes Fatigue causes Anxiety causes Insomnia causes Fatigue.
It's a wonder any of us can get up at all.
To clarify: this is constant. There has been no rest from this cycle for as long as I can remember.
It gets worse. It gets better. It never goes away.
This is a snapshot of my snoozing reality:
- I haven't fallen asleep without hypnosis or an audiobook for over 3 years.
- In the years prior to that, I could count the amount of times I slept without one on one hand.
- Before that, I used to have to have the TV on every single night
- I am regularly still awake at 4am
- I'm a light sleeper, so I wake up the minute anyone else is stirring
- I also wake up several times throughout the night
- I clench my jaw in my sleep, so always wake up with a headache
- I have been paralysed by night terrors on several occasions
At the minute, I am MEGA anxious and stressed, which means that all of this is amplified.
When people think about what it is like to live with anxiety, I am pretty sure that they think about all the psychological symptoms - the worrying, the panic attacks - and the physical symptoms probably don't even cross their minds.
Missing out on a basic need like sleep, really impacts on your quality of life. It's not easy to function without a good night's rest at the best of times, let alone when couples with mental illness.
That's my morning anyway. Happy Monday, I hope yours is better.